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besubversiveI love Dr. Segal because she notices every single place your paper could have possibly been better, and works it over (but in pencil, that's nicer), but still gives you lots of credit and ends with a comment like, "A pleasure to read."
I'm participating in Lent this year. No, not for any religious beliefs. I just find voluntary sacrifice REEEALLY hot. Like. Okay. Thinking of X number of participants hungering and wanting. Someone I know is choosing to fast completely on Fridays, and it just conjures images in my head of sucking on a lover's fingers for the salt. It's almost like submission, you know? Mmm. Chocolate, that's what I'm giving up. See how I'm doing during and after Valentine's Day, when chocolate is a sort of constant. Whew.
There was something else I wanted to mention. Mnmnmnmnmnmn can't remember. Oops.
When you wake up and realize that you are and have been rhythmically pressing your hips against the mattress, you know you are hard up for action. My hope lies solely in Philly. You know, the makeout party and the play party and just the handsome queers in general. Dlkajsdkjf. Bring it on.
In a related vein, I was thinking last night about my tendency to get all shy and introverted in social situations, especially when I'm surrounded by people I or others find attractive. I always think, on some level, "OMG, These people are better than me. That girl has a perfect body. That girl is braver. This other girl is just the most hot person here. How do I compare?" My goal, I suppose, is to provide myself with a steady flow of affirmations in the face of all that stunning and seemingly unmatchable hottness.
I'd like to be brave. I wish someone offered lessons in it.
Housing lottery is around the corner. Two hundred dollars for the deposit this year, instead of the normal one hundred. Being a "super-senior," I'm pretty much guaranteed whatever flipping room I want, as long as my deposit is in on time. I'm rooting for a double or a double-single in Curtis. If not, the biggest single possible in Butz.
Would someone like to accompany me to Imperial Tattoo in the near future? I'd like to talk to my guy about getting the birds touched up, since I was supposed to do it a long, long time ago and just kept putting it off. Social anxiety and whatnot. I also want to look into getting my femme star. But where?
I'm participating in Lent this year. No, not for any religious beliefs. I just find voluntary sacrifice REEEALLY hot. Like. Okay. Thinking of X number of participants hungering and wanting. Someone I know is choosing to fast completely on Fridays, and it just conjures images in my head of sucking on a lover's fingers for the salt. It's almost like submission, you know? Mmm. Chocolate, that's what I'm giving up. See how I'm doing during and after Valentine's Day, when chocolate is a sort of constant. Whew.
There was something else I wanted to mention. Mnmnmnmnmnmn can't remember. Oops.
When you wake up and realize that you are and have been rhythmically pressing your hips against the mattress, you know you are hard up for action. My hope lies solely in Philly. You know, the makeout party and the play party and just the handsome queers in general. Dlkajsdkjf. Bring it on.
In a related vein, I was thinking last night about my tendency to get all shy and introverted in social situations, especially when I'm surrounded by people I or others find attractive. I always think, on some level, "OMG, These people are better than me. That girl has a perfect body. That girl is braver. This other girl is just the most hot person here. How do I compare?" My goal, I suppose, is to provide myself with a steady flow of affirmations in the face of all that stunning and seemingly unmatchable hottness.
I'd like to be brave. I wish someone offered lessons in it.
Housing lottery is around the corner. Two hundred dollars for the deposit this year, instead of the normal one hundred. Being a "super-senior," I'm pretty much guaranteed whatever flipping room I want, as long as my deposit is in on time. I'm rooting for a double or a double-single in Curtis. If not, the biggest single possible in Butz.
Would someone like to accompany me to Imperial Tattoo in the near future? I'd like to talk to my guy about getting the birds touched up, since I was supposed to do it a long, long time ago and just kept putting it off. Social anxiety and whatnot. I also want to look into getting my femme star. But where?
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Date: 2005-02-10 11:34 am (UTC)It almost makes me want to be Catholic again.
All of my friends from home are these insanely
naturally beautiful girls - like I can't even
be self-righteous and say "Oh, she goes tanning
too much and bleaches out all her hair and has
eating disorders, what a faker, blah blah" or whatever
I sometimes tell myself, they are just BORN pretty.
Sometimes it gives me anxiety, too. I guess
attractive people do in general. Almost to
the point of handicap. Isn't that nuts? Like,
that we would never stay in a relationship if it
was so crippling, yet we allow other people we don't
even know, who are probably great and with good
intentions to do it without knowing?
Hmph.
I'd actually be up for a tattoo visit sometime.
I like to browse artsists books, and have a new
idea I want to review styles for.
Woohoooooooo. xo!
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Date: 2005-02-10 01:08 pm (UTC)And anyone prettier, more radical, perkier, with better hair, or dressed better than I... well, I get all frozen and terrible. That's a good way to think of it... as a relationship that we're choosing to erect, and it's probably only us that has that outlook on it. I have to start thinking of myself as divinely unique and not just a substandard shade of what's available.
Also... I have a CD for you! And does Jaime's Salon have business hours this week?
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Date: 2005-02-10 08:10 pm (UTC)it's one of my very favorite places in the LV. Sounds
like a plan! Seriously, let's all go.
WEEEEeeeee a CD! Wow, awesome. I just got a million
new things in the last two weeks (better than, like,
a coccaine addiction?) and will compile something
ASAO as well. Hooray! xo